MY APOLOGY

i wrap my legs around your waist,

you kiss me, that familiar taste,

thoughts rush in, you start to reason,

u give up, stop.

everyday i wake, to the thought of you,

i wonder if u think of me too.

my body aches for your touch,

i never knew that i could crave so much.

i try so hard to get over those nights,

tell myself its over, tell myself it wasn't right.

but how can i reason with my heart? 

how do i let go without falling apart?

since those nights, so much has changed,

your distant, hurt, bitter, paranoid, deranged.

im still waiting for you to smile back, waiting for you to call,

im still hoping you will forgive me, hoping we could restart it all.

i hurt you, i know that.. but i don't understand why

it's so hard for you to let go? forgive me... just try...

u don't get how it kills me, everytime you put up that wall

everytime you look away, that hard set of ur jaw- makes my skin crawl.

it's just the ego darling, let it go, it will set you free.

i know i messed up, i know, i know, and you know i feel guilty,

but could that one mistake be enough to reverse

everthing we built so far, for better or for worse?

forgive me love, im only human-there are many things that i lack,

but my heart is always open to you, won't you take me back

into your arms, where im safe, where i fit like a glove,

and this time, we won't stop...let's go all the way...let's make love.